I’m in a funk

And I didn’t feel like writing this week. 

But I made a commitment to post every week so I’m here, showing up. 

I’ve been in such an emotional whirlwind over the last few days that my focus has been 100% on looking after myself and fulfilling my commitments. 

The energy that is taking is enormous, especially considering my sleep has been subpar (I felt lucky to get in 3 hours last night). 

That said, I’m doing my best to keep my head high and boost my spirits. 

Here’s what I’m doing to make it through:

1. Work

I’m trying to re-focus on my responsibilities as best as possible. For now, that requires working a longer day (starting earlier and ending later) because my mind has needed to take more breaks to reset. 

2. Personal Support

When we’re overwhelmed, sometimes the last thing we need is to hear a myriad of opinions from everyone in our lives — however well-meaning. That’s where I’m at right now. 

Instead, I’ve confided in one close friend who has been amazing at checking in on me on a daily basis. 

I’m also making time to see loved ones. Part of me doesn’t want to (it feels too energy-consuming), but I know I’ll be glad that I showed up when I do. 

3. Professional Support

Recognizing that I’m not in the best frame of mind, I decided to reach out to both my coach and my therapist. I’m lucky that they are able to meet with me this week. They are both incredible at what they do, so I know they’ll be able to offer some much-needed guidance and wisdom.

4. Self Care

The habits that I’ve built up over the last few months are really helping carry me through this tough time. I’ve been journaling obsessively, keeping up with my exercise routine, taking my dog on longer walks to get fresh air, and reading a lot. Podcasts have also kept me in good company when I have needed a break from the chaos in my brain. 

To be clear, this is by no means intended to invite sympathy/pity — I just want to share honestly about where I’m at in this moment. 

That’s all I can do for now. ♥️